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Post by jasonlynch on Jan 28, 2013 10:30:19 GMT -8
Ok, so what I notice so far is that my body needs very little food and that I can go long periods of time without eating. I also notice I desire a little structure and tension for this project. I'm a spark plug at 175, and I have a big trip to Portland Oregon on Mar 3, so 30 pound weight loss in 6 weeks is what's gonna manifest. I also wanna throw on 5 pounds of lean muscle mass. There's a big youtube video interview coming up, and I wanna look my best!
I'm back at 192 right now. I noticed that numbers aren't important, but being conscious of what's going on behind the numbers, when it comes to physical health, is. When you're losing water weight rapidly and putting muscle on, numbers can go all over the place. But I want to get to that ideal spot(which I already consciously know), and it seems eating less and exercising more is what's taking place. We'll see how my week in the gym goes this week. More info to come. Thanks for the support! ;D
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Post by Reefs on Jan 28, 2013 20:40:22 GMT -8
I've overeaten many times to fill a void as it were, and to knowingly fill it ("I know I'm overeating as a way to numb myself but I don't care"). It only started happening after other addictions were shed. I'd never been an over-eater before. Not happening any more. Luckily it didn't last long and at most I only got 15kg overweight. I'm wondering what void Niz wanted to fill with his beedi smoking...  |
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Post by enigma on Jan 28, 2013 21:52:26 GMT -8
I've overeaten many times to fill a void as it were, and to knowingly fill it ("I know I'm overeating as a way to numb myself but I don't care"). It only started happening after other addictions were shed. I'd never been an over-eater before. Not happening any more. Luckily it didn't last long and at most I only got 15kg overweight. I'm wondering what void Niz wanted to fill with his beedi smoking... He may have been trying to maintain his sanity around all those insane seekers in his house.  |
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Post by Reefs on Jan 29, 2013 0:54:11 GMT -8
I'm wondering what void Niz wanted to fill with his beedi smoking... He may have been trying to maintain his sanity around all those insane seekers in his house. Ah, now I get it, it's the "show of tamas" Ramakrishna was talking about. ;D |
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Post by enigma on Jan 29, 2013 10:50:58 GMT -8
He may have been trying to maintain his sanity around all those insane seekers in his house. Ah, now I get it, it's the "show of tamas" Ramakrishna was talking about. ;D There ya go. Blow a little smoke in their faces and flick the butts at em and they settle down a bit.  |
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Post by jasonlynch on Feb 2, 2013 4:27:51 GMT -8
Howdy folks. Sho, mostly what I've been noticing lately are absences, which aren't a whole lot of fun to talk about. The idea that there's something I want to do that I can't do doesn't even appear in my consciousness. Whatever I want to do, I do, and that's all I have to say about that. I've been going around and doing the whole spiritual teacher thing to see if the role and I are compatible. I tried this role on a couple years back and it didn't work out, so I left the country, and hadn't thought about it since. But since being back in amerrrrka, the universe has warmed up to me, like a kitty cat. In this post, I'd like to address 2 issues, weed smoking and binge drinking. (note to self, don't get high and go to satsang ) I like smoking weed, and I like getting pissed, but it would seem that one month with no alcohol or weed in the system will be a healthy thing. I think my relationship with recreational substances is somewhat dysfunctional, and I'd like to give that dysfunction some space to heal. I don't plan on quitting smoking or drinking, just heal the dysfunction. I've gone months without drinking and months without smoking, but never both at the same time. My trip to Portland is in a month. I'm not gonna drink or smoke until my trip next month. I also have a big trip back to the Republic of Georgia on March 20, and I think it will be helpful for the universe if I'm firing on all cylinders at almost all times. Will report back what I notice. I expect to see some interesting dynamics ;D Oh, I'm down to 189, and feeling chipper! Thanks for the support... |
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Post by jasonlynch on Feb 2, 2013 9:05:35 GMT -8
What I notice today is that I have some inhibitions about being a spiritual teacher. Going to satsang and spittin is one thang, but I can't say I'm totally comfortable with sharing my ambitions with the people around me. I just got off the phone with my parents, and I told them about my article that's on the main site (check it out if you haven't, hey phil can we get an edit on that?) and some of my future plans. They didn't sound thrilled exactly, but they didn't freak out either. I also notice that I'm a slightly arrogant person, which is a compensation mechanism to avoid telling people what I'm actually thinking and feeling. I look forward to the absence of that  |
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Post by jasonlynch on Feb 3, 2013 20:11:36 GMT -8
So I busted out my lawyer pen today, and went over the details of my spiritual teacher contract. It says no binge drinking. That means no more. Other than that I'm gonna do whatever I want whenever I want. Program written, and internalized.
I wrote this today, it'll probably make the book.
"THere's really nothing to understand other than to see we're making it all up. WIth that said, the creation of concepts to probe the boundaries of belief is effective in creating the potential to transcend the boundary. When we notice a boundary being probed, we are given the opportunity to notice there's nothing there. Of course defense mechanisms may be in place which prevent that from happening. Hence, we sometimes discuss the dynamics of those mechanics, to make them conscious, and thus unable to function. In the absence of a self to defend, you aren't going to have much to worry about."
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Post by roberto on Feb 3, 2013 21:28:28 GMT -8
In this post, I'd like to address 2 issues, weed smoking and binge drinking. (note to self, don't get high and go to satsang ) I like smoking weed, and I like getting pissed, but it would seem that one month with no alcohol or weed in the system will be a healthy thing. I think my relationship with recreational substances is somewhat dysfunctional, and I'd like to give that dysfunction some space to heal. I don't plan on quitting smoking or drinking, just heal the dysfunction. I've gone months without drinking and months without smoking, but never both at the same time. My trip to Portland is in a month. I'm not gonna drink or smoke until my trip next month. I also have a big trip back to the Republic of Georgia on March 20, and I think it will be helpful for the universe if I'm firing on all cylinders at almost all times. Cool dude. I recently decided that I would limit drinking to once a week. Maybe I'll do a one month cleanse with ya, then when you come to Portland we'll party down. Will report back what I notice. I expect to see some interesting dynamics ;D Oh, I'm down to 189, and feeling chipper! Thanks for the support... Man, we are like on the same page and shit. I just joined a gym a month ago to get back in shape and feel healthy. |
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Post by jasonlynch on Feb 4, 2013 4:14:18 GMT -8
In this post, I'd like to address 2 issues, weed smoking and binge drinking. (note to self, don't get high and go to satsang ) I like smoking weed, and I like getting pissed, but it would seem that one month with no alcohol or weed in the system will be a healthy thing. I think my relationship with recreational substances is somewhat dysfunctional, and I'd like to give that dysfunction some space to heal. I don't plan on quitting smoking or drinking, just heal the dysfunction. I've gone months without drinking and months without smoking, but never both at the same time. My trip to Portland is in a month. I'm not gonna drink or smoke until my trip next month. I also have a big trip back to the Republic of Georgia on March 20, and I think it will be helpful for the universe if I'm firing on all cylinders at almost all times. Cool dude. I recently decided that I would limit drinking to once a week. Maybe I'll do a one month cleanse with ya, then when you come to Portland we'll party down. Will report back what I notice. I expect to see some interesting dynamics ;D Oh, I'm down to 189, and feeling chipper! Thanks for the support... Man, we are like on the same page and shit. I just joined a gym a month ago to get back in shape and feel healthy. Thanks dawg! Based on my current drive to write and savage like nature in the gym, I do feel like my body is already cleansed and expect to see less over indulgence on the drinking front. But I'm not gonna put rules on my head which might cause mind splits. I'm gonna do the 175 because I want to be at my ideal spot for more reasons than one, and when there's a will, you know there's a way. But I'm also going to do whatever the hell I want whenever the hell I want, and I'll have my middle finger handy in case anyone has a problem with that. However, I did go over my particular 'contract', and I won't binge drink anymore, because its in the fine print. These are the rules of engagement for me, and the dude abides by those rules... If you're gonna cleanse for a month I got your back tho. And when I get to portland its on mang! Woot woot. |
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Post by Reefs on Feb 4, 2013 7:59:34 GMT -8
There ya go. Blow a little smoke in their faces and flick the butts at em and they settle down a bit. Hehe, the smoke of tamas. |
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Post by Reefs on Feb 4, 2013 8:05:31 GMT -8
What I notice today is that I have some inhibitions about being a spiritual teacher. Going to satsang and spittin is one thang, but I can't say I'm totally comfortable with sharing my ambitions with the people around me. I just got off the phone with my parents, and I told them about my article that's on the main site (check it out if you haven't, hey phil can we get an edit on that?) and some of my future plans. They didn't sound thrilled exactly, but they didn't freak out either. I also notice that I'm a slightly arrogant person, which is a compensation mechanism to avoid telling people what I'm actually thinking and feeling. I look forward to the absence of that Big mistake. BIG mistake. Never tell anyone about your ideas and plans before you are fully convinced yourself and have the feeling that wild horses couldn't stop you. Why does the feedback of your parents matter to you? What do you want to teach? |
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Post by Reefs on Feb 4, 2013 8:20:17 GMT -8
I've been going around and doing the whole spiritual teacher thing to see if the role and I are compatible. I tried this role on a couple years back and it didn't work out, so I left the country, and hadn't thought about it since. But since being back in amerrrrka, the universe has warmed up to me, like a kitty cat.
In this post, I'd like to address 2 issues, weed smoking and binge drinking. (note to self, don't get high and go to satsang ) I like smoking weed, and I like getting pissed, but it would seem that one month with no alcohol or weed in the system will be a healthy thing. I think my relationship with recreational substances is somewhat dysfunctional, and I'd like to give that dysfunction some space to heal. I don't plan on quitting smoking or drinking, just heal the dysfunction. I've gone months without drinking and months without smoking, but never both at the same time. My trip to Portland is in a month. I'm not gonna drink or smoke until my trip next month. I also have a big trip back to the Republic of Georgia on March 20, and I think it will be helpful for the universe if I'm firing on all cylinders at almost all times. About the teacher thingy: rule of thumb is, if it requires effort to accomplish it, then it ain't worth it! ;D About the recreational dysfunctions: what is it you like about the weed and alcohol? What's the difference in the state of being before/after taking in the substances? |
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Post by jasonlynch on Feb 4, 2013 11:21:16 GMT -8
What I notice today is that I have some inhibitions about being a spiritual teacher. Going to satsang and spittin is one thang, but I can't say I'm totally comfortable with sharing my ambitions with the people around me. I just got off the phone with my parents, and I told them about my article that's on the main site (check it out if you haven't, hey phil can we get an edit on that?) and some of my future plans. They didn't sound thrilled exactly, but they didn't freak out either. I also notice that I'm a slightly arrogant person, which is a compensation mechanism to avoid telling people what I'm actually thinking and feeling. I look forward to the absence of that Big mistake. BIG mistake. Never tell anyone about your ideas and plans before you are fully convinced yourself and have the feeling that wild horses couldn't stop you. Why does the feedback of your parents matter to you? What do you want to teach? I'm feeling a bit like a wild mustang at the moment reefy boy, and have you considered the possibility that I couldn't make a mistake if i tried? The feedback of my parents isn't important to me, but I was withholding information from them because I didn't feel comfortable telling them my plans. What do I want to teach. I dunno, I just wanna write a book and make some bank. Exposing lies seems like the way I'm gonna do it. |
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Post by jasonlynch on Feb 4, 2013 11:28:09 GMT -8
I don't notice any effort. Altho some might equate working out with effort. I find I enjoy exercise, but on a certain level, it is effort.
I like weed because it can help me become conscious of things. I also enjoy being high sometimes. With alcohol, just the latter. The difference in the before/after, that would depend on how long before and how long after. I don't think you want me to explain the effects of recreational substances, so I won't do that. In terms of the dysfunction, I had an unresolved conflict which would not allow me to be engage consciously in book writing and spiritual teaching until I resolved it. Do you believe in soul contracts?
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